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  • Why Bloggers Quit: Depression, Comparison & the Pressure to Be Positive

    Why Bloggers Quit: Depression, Comparison & the Pressure to Be Positive

    Blogging… When You Have Nothing to Give

    Hello.

    Those two of you who keep reading my posts might have noticed that I haven’t been writing as frequently as I did back in February or January. The truth is, I feel uninspired. How can — or should — you write something inspiring or vulnerable when you feel blue or gray?

    I always like to remember the phrase from the great Cameron Tucker: “I don’t think I would make a very inspiring disabled person.” Don’t get me wrong — I guess that since I’ve been struggling with depression, I technically have some sort of alternative ability. But honestly, sometimes it’s a struggle. I wanted this to be a place of joy. But sometimes it feels cumbersome to think about ideas, especially when your plans don’t pan out.

    It’s also frustrating when some of your ideas or plans don’t pan out. I can’t spare the funds for simple things I would like to do. Honestly, I want to go to Annecy. I would also love to see Genova. It’s been a long time coming — I planned a trip there in 2023, but lucky me managed to sprain my ankle, almost completely tearing two ligaments in my left foot, and was therefore more or less housebound. I could have gone, but Italy — like the rest of Europe — has a walking culture, which I love. You shouldn’t have to drive everywhere you go. That’s not ideal when your ankle is literally hanging on by a thread.

    The worst of my pity party is probably being on social media. I see women and men younger than me achieving dreams that I don’t dare to think of. It kind of hurts. It’s not that I don’t want to acknowledge their hard work — they had to do something to get where they are.

    But sometimes I wonder… why not me? I guess it’s simply entitlement. Simply feeling that maybe I should get a piece of the metaphorical success cake.

    Oh well.

  • Strasbourg Travel Diary Part II: What It Feels Like to Slow Down in Alsace

    Strasbourg Travel Diary Part II: What It Feels Like to Slow Down in Alsace

    You see me rolling

    If you haven’t read the first post about Strasbourg, you can find the story here.

    So. The day finally came. September 2021.

    If you read the first story, you already know — I am not a vacation friend. And while I tend to be indecisive about most things in life, travel brings out a version of me that knows exactly where she wants to go and what she wants to do when she gets there. No committee required.

    I also didn’t want my neighbour at the time to find out I was leaving. I just wanted to go. Quietly. Without opinions, without unsolicited advice, without anyone casting the evil eye in my direction.

    So I took my suitcase and slipped away down the back path of my student residence like the independent woman I was. Unbothered. Unbothered and slightly sneaky.

    I made my way to the bus stop, caught the bus a few minutes later, and after a ten minute ride arrived at Heidelberg Hauptbahnhof. From there, the route was straightforward enough — Heidelberg to Karlsruhe, Karlsruhe to Offenburg, Offenburg to Strasbourg.

    DB, however, had other plans.

    I still don’t fully understand how they managed to make a three-stop journey feel like a logistical operation, but here we are. We arrived in Karlsruhe without incident. The connection was smooth. Offenburg, though — Offenburg required a sprint.

    I ran from the regional train to the SWE train with everything I had. Thank God for my stamina back then. Lord knows it has since disappeared.

    Thankfully, some faster and more merciful passengers ahead of me held the doors open. I arrived breathless, panting, slightly humiliated — but on the train. Another thirty minutes standing, but I made it.

    Strasbourg, I was coming for you.

    We pulled into the station and I made my way to the tram, heading toward the hotel. The Athena Spa Hotel. Four stars.

    I had never stayed anywhere with more than two stars before. Walking into that foyer, I felt it immediately — something that could only be described as arriving.

    The check-in, however, was less graceful.

    Having never navigated a four-star hotel before, my brain quietly short-circuited the moment I reached the reception desk. I attempted to pay for my room immediately upon arrival. Right there. On the spot. The very kind receptionist — bless her — gently informed me that payment typically happens at the end of a stay.

    Oops.

    I collected what remained of my dignity, took my room key, and made my way up.

    The room was at the back of the hotel. The view, let’s say, offered a certain intimacy with the windows of neighbouring rooms — though everyone had curtains and I was truly not interested in anyone else’s evening. What it lacked in panoramic vistas it made up for in quiet, and quiet was exactly what I needed.

    I was hungry. So for the first time in my life, I ordered room service. A burger and fries. When the bill arrived I remember thinking it was an obscene amount of money for a burger — which, I later learned, is simply the universal experience of room service everywhere in the world.

    I changed into the hotel bathrobe — thankfully provided — and I just… stopped. Chilled. Existed without agenda. I think when people talk about mindfulness, what they mean is exactly that feeling. The particular peace of being somewhere new, alone, with nowhere to be and nobody waiting.


    Relexation

    After some thoroughly unbothered phone scrolling, I packed my swimming costume and headed downstairs to the pool.

    The hotel had one large pool that alternated between regular swimming pool and whirlpool. When I arrived, a mother and her small son were already there — the boy delighting in the water, the mother doing her best to be both present and slightly invisible simultaneously. She shot me a look. I shot her one back. We understood each other perfectly.

    She was from Switzerland — Geneva or Zurich, I can’t quite remember now, though I’ve since visited Zurich and Geneva remains on the list.

    And then I swam. I jumped. I smiled. I paused. I enjoyed.

    Strasbourg — so far, I like you quite a lot.

    I took a photo of the pool on my way out, naturally. As we all know: if you didn’t post it, it never happened.

  • Zurich Part II: The Trip that gave me Covid

    Zurich Part II: The Trip that gave me Covid

    I woke the next morning unshowered, unrested, and unpleasantly surprised. The first sound I heard wasn’t birdsong or silence, but the hairdresser’s radio next door—blaring at maximum volume. My skin felt sticky and tired, and without my ritual shower, I was already off to a rough start.

    I did what I could: washed my face, brushed my teeth, tried the shower (still broken), and got dressed. Adventure called. With Maps guiding me—badly, as it turned out—I zigzagged across streets and sidewalks until I gave up and followed the street signs instead.

    My first stop: Frauenmünster (Women’s Minster).

    Women’s Minster in Zurich

    From there, I crossed over to Zurich’s other famous church, the Grossmünster (Great Minster). I didn’t go inside, because my eyes (and feet) were already set on Lake Zurich.

    Great Minster

    And here’s where honesty kicks in: Lake Zurich was… underwhelming. Maybe it was me, maybe it was the season (fall edging toward winter), or maybe Zurich just wasn’t vibing with me that day. So many people rave about the city, but sometimes what sparkles for others feels flat to you.

    Still, I walked along the lake, soaking in the grayness, when—serendipity!—I ran into the same American friends I’d met at the kebab place the night before. A nice reminder that travel is as much about people as places.

    Lake Zurich

    Eventually, I lined up for a boat ride. Mistake number one: not checking the schedule. I stood in the cold for 20 minutes before learning (thanks to a kind stranger) that I could just buy the ticket onboard. Mistake number two: assuming I’d find a seat inside. The boat was packed, so I braved the outside deck in Zurich’s biting 3–8°C weather. For someone who thrives in summer, I was miserable. By the halfway point, my fingers had turned white-yellow from the cold. The view? Pretty enough, but I was more relieved than anything when the ride ended.

    Back at the hotel, I gave myself the gift of comfort: a supermarket pizza, some fruit, a little wine, and later a tarte flambée. I tucked it all into the mini-fridge, curled up, and spent the evening with TV instead of tourist attractions.

    Sometimes travel is adventure. Sometimes it’s surrender. This day was a little of both.

    View from the boat – Lake Zurich

    This is it for now. Part 3 coming soon.

  • Zurich Part 1— The Trip that gave me Covid

    Lake Zurich

    Zurich. The renowned Swiss city. Harbor of banks, restaurants, and many very expensive clothing brands. Yeah, expensive even in the Swiss sense.

    Switzerland is a pristine country, known for its beautiful mountain ranges, picturesque lakes, and an overall unbelievably magnificent landscape.

    So many people had been recommending the city to me, saying Zurich was the city to visit in Switzerland. I had wanted to do this trip for such a long time, but life kept getting in the way.

    I finally made it happen in November of last year. I booked the Flixbus, booked the hotel room. I was happy. Emphasis on was.

    I boarded the Flixbus and off we went. I snuggled in, sitting next to a nice Asian lady who, unfortunately for me, hogged the USB ports for charging. To my right, a guy was regularly coughing—the kind of cough where you think he might not make it through the ride.

    I chilled regardless and put on one of my favorite shows, Reasonable Doubt. The second season had just come out, and I loved the first one. Michael Ealy and Emayatzy Corinealdi are both draws and very physically beautiful people. Plus, they can actually act.

    Season two—no Michael Ealy. But they got the one and only Morris Chestnut. What a man, what an actor. Even more motivation to watch, because I wanted to see what kind of character he would play and how they would introduce him.

    What was supposed to be a five-hour trip ended up being an eight-hour ordeal. And the guy was still coughing like he had the Plague.

    After eight hours, we finally arrived in Zurich. But it wasn’t what I expected. I kinda didn’t like it. I made my way from the bus station to the nearest tram stop, bought a ticket, and headed toward the tram station closest to my hotel. I checked in. The hotel was Visionapartments Brandschekenstrasse Zurich.

    Never again. My room was on the ground floor, right next to a hairdresser, which I didn’t know at the time but soon found out. The room looked fine, but then panic set in—I couldn’t find my wallet. WHERE WAS MY WALLET? I was so sure I had taken it with me, but suddenly horror scenarios flashed before my eyes. Had I left it in the tram? The Flixbus? How would I cross the border back to Germany?

    I left the room, looked outside, even checked in front of the hotel. Got back to my room and—you know it—it was there the whole time. Under my bag.

    Take two. I made my way to a kebap place, picked out what to eat, and noticed some American tourists struggling with the menu. Since they didn’t know German, I interpreted the menu for them and said a quick goodbye once they ordered. I love these quick interactions and always wonder how people’s lives go on afterward.

    Back at the hotel, kebap in hand, all I wanted was a warm shower to revitalize. I went into the bathroom, turned the handle… and nothing. No water, nothing.

    I was so sad. For me, that’s the only thing that brings me down after a long day. Great—no shower. I didn’t even know what to do, so I put something comfy on and went to bed.

    I turned on the TV and snuggled into my covers…

    Lovely trip so far, right? Please leave a comment—has this ever happened to you?

  • Self-love: Finding yourself in a crowd of people

    Twas the season to get luxurious. Or so I thought.

    After yet another spiral of self-doubt, anger, and that familiar dull ache of self-loathing, I knew I needed to step out—literally. My days had blurred into a gray loop of working, studying, sleeping, and doing it all over again. The sun rose and set like a metronome, ticking through time, but nothing really moved me. My student apartment had become a quiet container for my thoughts, but not my feelings—something my psychologist gently pointed out. Feel your feelings, he said, not just think them.

    So I decided to do something different. Something that felt intentional. I picked up The Defining Decade by Dr. Meg Jay—a book every twenty-something should probably read. It wasn’t just full of research or clinical insight; it told stories about people like me, trying to make sense of their twenties. Careers, love, meaning, identity—each chapter gave me language for what I was stumbling through.

    With the book in hand and a shaky sense of purpose, I made a reservation at jil Rooftop Bar, one of Heidelberg’s newer, trendier spots. Picture this: a crisp fall night, Bismarckplatz glittering below, and me, in a black dress with a slit up the side, attempting what I hoped would be a moment—a night of self-love and presence.

    Reality arrived before the drinks did.

    I sat down alone. Waited. No one came. The room was full of life—strangers laughing, couples clinking glasses—and I was invisible. Eventually, I flagged someone down and ordered a Limoncello Sprizz and foie gras-stuffed chicken. I opened my book between sips, trying to create a cinematic moment for myself.

    But I wasn’t in a film. The food arrived, underwhelming. The drink was fine. The atmosphere buzzed, but I felt disconnected. Gray inside. My table neighbors asked if I was alone. I smiled and said yes, that I wanted to be. I wasn’t lying—but I also wasn’t fulfilled.

    After finishing, I stepped onto the balcony. Filmed the view. Still numb. I went back inside, ordered another drink, and let the weight settle in. No sudden clarity. No Instagram-worthy transformation. Just silence inside a very loud place.

    I paid at the bar. The waiter didn’t get a tip—the food was late and the service indifferent. I walked out onto the cold street, called my sister, and cried.